Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Oh Think twice... Its Just Another Day For you and Me In Paradise

In a very pensive mood at the moment... feeling grateful for the opportunities i have yet feeling sad at the same time.
today i had a lecture on altered states of consciousness which included drug abuse. It didnt go into great detail but it really hit home to me. To think that a few years ago that was me... i was shooting up smack to escape from reality. My life has turned around majorly; from sleeping on the street to now studying at uni.
Somehow i dont know i got here and it scares me that i could turn around and go back.
Why or how did i have the strength to get out of that situation and why are so many people still stuck in it? Do i deserve this over someone else? Do i deserve this full stop?

On to other stuff... Im starting again... Obviously i havnt been on here a lot lately... This may be due to me generally binging and gaining a heap of weight and feeling unworthy of views. So not only will i be back for real (which is at least 3 posts a week and commenting on the blogs i read) but i am losing all this disgustingness. the plan is 1200 cals for this week and then every week after drop it by 100cal until i get to 600cal. It can be done!

Songs of Today
Phil Collins - Another Day In Paradise
Delta goodren - The Analyst

2 comments:

  1. You deserve it for sure! So glad for you, that you dragged yourself out of hell. It's good to have a healthy fear of going back, I think. Important to never forget. "We will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it.

    We will comprehend the word serenity and we will know peace.

    No matter how far down the scale we have gone,
    we will see how our experience can benefit others" ~ that's from the AA book, and it came to mind when I was reading your post.

    :-) xo Jenn

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  2. u desreve it cause ur a strong and amazing person

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